I've recently had some conversations about this with people i know, and i kinda noticed that they seem to think it's some "profound" and "wise" line of thinking that I'd do everything i ever did in life, negatives and positives, all over again after i die even given the full weight of every traumatic memory and years long negative experience.
My line of thinking is that life's a gift I'm free to mold into whatever i want if I'm stubborn enough about it in all the right ways, and that provides me with a ton of beauty and purpose at any given moment if I'm able to see it. and even when it goes wrong - traumatic even - i take it upon myself to bounce back until i breathe my last. And so with that kind of belief, another question emerges, which is, "would i do this again?" And the answer is "of course, a million times and more until the end". And of course, this is coming from me, and I've struggled with VERY terrible mental health for most of my life, and only began to see improvement when i embraced the idea that "Struggle is how you know you're living for something, merely being and experiencing everything, is inherently a form of purpose" and sooner than later, I've managed to form these "philosophical ideas" and adopt them fully.
Some have interpreted it as "apathy" or "denial" because i guess i need to always have a knife to my neck or something unless everything is perfect, and some as mentioned earlier, thought this was incredibly profound.
The interesting thing is, i think it's neither. It's just how i choose to live and it works for me. But what I'm more interested in, is how do you guys go about viewing life? Would you do it all over again or just rather be in a void after you die? Or do you have a different arrangement?
I'm of course, only asking out of curiosity. So I won't bite anyone if they disagree with my ideas lol.
SouSTAR
I dont hate myself because i know some are way worse, but I still feel some contempt over me because there's also way better than me
Dunno
MoeAnguish
Then that's your cue to work on yourself more until you can't find it in yourself to be anything but proud.