2024 in my experience, can be compared to one long nightmare as i wait to get crucified and see "the end" coming to claim me. But weirdly enough... That "end" never came, and something much better happened.

That thing was "release". A release I've had to wait for endlessly, and just when i gave up hope, everything changed almost miraculously.

Now you're probably wondering, "what am i even talking about?", and the answer is that this is a largely personal matter, relating to things I don't like to talk about much, but the contents of my more "somber" games and artworks should give you a clue.

I've been going through one of the most important battles of my life for a long time. From being uprooted from where i was and finding necessity in going elsewhere - metaphorically and literally, self inflicted and otherwise - to needing to attend to near endless uphill battles as i do so in every domain in life.

Overall, these last couple of years have been nothing short of exhausting, but I'm glad 2024 isn't an extension of that and is instead, the conclusion of it all.

But with this chaos being everything i knew literally earlier than since I've had this account and how much influence it had over my work and me, a new question pops up, which is... "What now?"

Well... I don't know. I'm simply, and finally, at peace. I'll let myself enjoy it, before another Abyss calls me to fall through it.

However, i have some ideas. Such as that I'm definitely going to see if i wanna go and change professions or just usernames and style and aim for things that are at a larger scale than before. I also especially want to bring back some hobbies I've given up on if i did do that.

I also think i need to rethink much of my goals before i invest in them again, since sadly, these years have caused me to forget why i even wanted any of them completely, and why it even mattered in the first place.

And going forward, i definitely want to keep working on some skills I've picked up but couldn't give my full attention. Meditation being a main one right next to more advanced programming topics and other such things.

In conclusion though... These years have not been kind to me. But for once, i feel like I'm able to stand on my feet again and i can finally understand why i told myself all the time that I'd rather "Die standing than live kneeling to anything" no matter how difficult things would get.

And with that said, you guys will very likely not see much of me anywhere again - IF i conclude I'm better off doing something else - but in any case, just know I'll be alright.

I always am.

Now, later.