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Joined on 11/21/19
@MoeAnguish
Dunno, I'm not used to be "proud" tbh. We're just the way we are. We don't chose our body, nationality, capabilities, or whatever
For instance i was doing great with my studies until now, being in my first year of college. I've learned english out of love for the language and american culture, but I feel i can't do it anymore. And seeing my classmates going ahead of me, i just feel meh
It suck, but that's just the way it is, you know? "It is what it is".
Yeah, definitely. but at the same time, it's important to not compare yourself to anyone. Especially because you're only seeing what matters to you in them without seeing how they got to that point. Hell, they might be way worse than you or have better qualities than you, but all in all, you could always learn something from those comparisons and usually it won't be "i stink and I'm hopeless and they're better than me"
I'm 17 so it's not like I have much life experience in the grand scheme of things right now, but honestly I would not wish to relive my life from the very beginning, but maybe my opinion might change later on so I don't know really. Not to say my life is the absolute worst as I know there are far worse things that I could be dealing with and I obviously do know I am very privileged compared to others (and I'm obviously grateful for that), but Idk, life has always just been incredibly boring and lonely for me for the most part. The only mild amount of dopamine I get every day is from the things I use to distract myself instead of anything truly meaningful or impactful, really the only things that bring me genuine joy and happiness are my friends but all of them are online friends with busy schedules so it's not like I really am able to do much with them besides just chatting.
I don't know how to really view my life, it feels like it's never even started (though it's probably because once again, I'm 17), but I don't really know how to get everything going and start truly living.
I'm not the type to see the beauty in absolutely everything and I'm not the type to see the worst in absolutely everything, I just see things from what I believe they are, and to me life is just kind of nothing really. Doesn't feel like anything happens and when things do happen it's always kind of shitty or even terrifying.
Once again though, I'm 17, maybe someday I'll view it differently.
I'd say your views on life will always change as you grow older so really, it isn't just a thing of being young, but a matter of time and experience no matter your age. Either way, i wish you luck going forward.
SouSTAR
I dont hate myself because i know some are way worse, but I still feel some contempt over me because there's also way better than me
Dunno
MoeAnguish
Then that's your cue to work on yourself more until you can't find it in yourself to be anything but proud.